My husband and I were married for almost 5 years. He is an ordained minister. I was a worship leader in our church. I thought we were like every other couple. He decided that he wasn't in love with me anymore and left. He had been abusive at times, but I always thought we were going to be together til Christ returned. However, on November 29th, he left, for what he said was a break. However, he filed for divorce December 4th, without telling me or even asking me what I thought. I sought my spiritual leaders advice and they said he was making a mistake. They tried calling him and he would not answer their calls. My pastor finally got around to calling me the day I was supposed to sign the divorce papers. I stopped attending the church we were part of because it hurt too much to see these people we were in ministry with. He is living the single life now, but still goes to that church. I have recently started seeing someone but I still love my ex-husband. I want to be with him. I can't stop loving him, no matter how hard I try. What can I do? I don't know what to do.